small things left behind

Table of Contents

• Front cover 1
• Title page 4
• Copyright page 5
• Dedication 6
• Contents 8
• lucky stars 12
• let my people go 13
• release 16
• end of my life in a box 18
• not scared 19
• baggage 21
• last visit at my parents’ home 23
• letters 24
• crossing the line 26
• pain 28
• airborne 29
• August 5th 1979 31
• torn. gone. 33
• crowds 35
• déjà vu 36
• watermelon 38
• emigration 39
• Ostia beach study with three lives one month after escape 40
• I wake up in the middle of night 41
• you will be strangers in a strange land 42
• perekati-pole 43
• Edmonton founded 1980 44
• blue night 46
• they still censor my life 48
• the finger 49
• prairie apples 50
• small things left behind 51
• rational foot forward 53
• discoveries 54
• connections 55
• picking apples 56
• no answer to the questions not asked 58
• Mayday flowers 59
• old dress 61
• gold coins 62
• you are my mother-in-law 63
• my father tells me a story 67
• wake-up call 69
• perceptions 71
• reflections 73
• hedgehog and turtle in Soviet Union 74
• silence 76
• old photographs 77
• watching a military parade in the Soviet Union 78
• every May 9th of my childhood 80
• war harvest 84
• bog cranberries best picked at the first frost 85
• Grandma, I don’t remember you 87
• my cat Kilka 89
• unravelling 91
• recurring dream 97
• choice 98
• homesickness snapshot 99
• linden honey 100
• coat 102
• I don’t put sugar in my tea 104
• mirage 105
• reunion 106
• collapse 108
• seta naturale is the natural silk 110
• nebulous 112
• striped cake 113
• innocents in the Soviet Union 115
• affliction 116
• there is an empty space where I’ve been sitting 117
• an outsider 119
• passing 124
• amnesia 126
• talking to an old photo album 128
• acknowledgements 132
• about the author 134
• Other books from University of Alberta Press 137